Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays

The Holiday cheer kicks into HIGH GEAR this week.

Tomorrow Friendsgiving, Tuesday singing carols at the nursing home, Thursday holiday party, Friday Ice skating, Saturday one last Hoorah, Sunday Church, and Monday....

HOME.

25 Days of Christmas

I am so excited for this Holiday Season!

This is my countdown! You should do it too!

http://25days.realityla.com/

Twilight?!

VAMPIREEEEESSS!! ahhh

So this is random, but I have given it some thought, and instead of journaling about it, I figure it's easier to type it out.

So, about 2 years ago, maybe 3, I went out to visit Alex in Utah. While I was out there, I remember reading an article out of the BYU school newspaper about Twilight. The subject title was EMOTIONAL PORN.

I remember reading it, showing it to A, and laughing at how ridiculous it was that someone would be such a hater to write negative about my then fav books.

Well..on Sunday, I watched the 3 twilight movies again with my roomies, and now I have a total different perspective on it.

Recently I have been focused on Jesus, and feel like recently I have matured in my spirituality... through seeking him and focusing on what he has for my life.

It's through this search that I have begun realizing what is most important in my life. and how different relationships play out in that equation.

The most important relationship I have is with my heavenly father and his son Jesus Christ. Above all things, this is the epicenter of my focus..

From that love, I am able to then, if God so chooses to bless me, have a romantic relationship that can lead to marriage. but it's just that. A blessing.

I was not MADE for my husband. I was made to glorify God. I was made to be in union with him. And yes, marriage is a blessing from God...but like I just said... it's just that, a blessing.

So anyways...when watching Twilight..I saw it differently this time.

Bella cannot LIVE without Edward...and Edward find NO PURPOSE without Bella.

I used to find this so romantic and remember wanting that feeling so badly, and that love.

Now, I just think it's stupid, and gives girls an unrealistic view of what Love is. If you place your worth in your relationship, you will be disappointed..It's not an if, it's a when. People aren't perfect, and neither is love. And you are never GUARANTEED that your significant will be around, alive, or faithful...

But you can always count on your father in heaven!

I'm not saying this to be negative nancy about love or about marriage, because I'm not negative about it! I want it, believe me! I want a pretty love story with a handsome man who sweeps me off my feet and we live happily ever after...

My point however is, if that DOESNT happen...I will be okay. Because I don't live for the blessings I receive. I live for the one who does the blessing.

Holla Ballas

Bloggie Timmmme

Just spent a solid hour reading through all my old Bloggies.

Very Reflective. good time.

Rico officially moved in tonight.

He got me out of my funk by forcing me to watch Cable Guy with him..and though I didn't necessarily LOVE the show. I loved hearing him laugh at it.

:) Thank Jesus for friendships and little baby boys

Melrose Place

Do you know that show? Well..I don't. But I do know it's premised around a group of good lookin friends who all live together..well.. That's where I live. I live with almost 10 (7) of my friends..and yes we all work together...and play together...and eat together...and work out together..It's kinda weird. I know. But I love it.

My sweet Taylor May moved home for a little bit, and I am now surrounded by boys...Because they love me so much and didn't want me living alone.. ;) they are moving in with me!

No, they both needed a place to stay, and want to cook me dinners all the time, so here it is..the moment we have all been waiting for... Meet my new roommates.

BUT FIRST we must say goodbye to Keithers :(

No Keith is not my roommate... He is leaving us here in Cali to go live in Mammoth and be a Bad a Snowboarder :(..good thing we already have a trip planned.

SO HERE ARE my roommies

Sweet Benjamin Knox. Yes..he has a halo on his head. He broke his neck at the beginning of the summer..but he's doing great now! His halo is off and he is able to walk around without his brace (against my wishes)

Meet little Rico...I stole this pic from his grandma's house (Gram's bear..) Look at that HEAD. He looks like Jimmy Neutron.
And here is me reek and Karly!

I am so excited to live with these sweet boys!

Welcome to Melrose Place

Jesus..

My best friend. I am your beloved. You are so precious to me. I want to write about how much I love the Lord, but my heart is so overwhelmed with his intimacy.

Everything is as it should be. Because I trust in him. I really do trust him...which frees up a lot of space in my silly brain that loves to wear me out.

Thank God for the holy spirit..because without it, I do believe I would want to die.

If there was no God, and no savior, I would have nothing to live for.

But there is...

and living for them is the greatest blessing of all.

My princess

missin this precious peach

My weekend included

Buying a new top
Dancing like a flower child as my coworker and friend Ryan Lassi got Sassy at the Malibu Inn Dj-ing!
Got seriously homesick on saturday night and skyped Maggie Duncan for well over 2 hours...and we were both wearing zit cream...oh girls
Watching this handsome man play Lacrosse and Win... Yes he was on the alumni team, and yes his 29 year old self helped beat the current LMU team!
And finally a beautiful bike ride to the Abbott Kinney Festival where I danced with this boy and bought sweet lemonade while reppin my Ga roots

Intro

So I have already written a blog introducing my friends out here..but heres a little video of us on Sunday at brunch..a pretty typical morning for us.

Hiya

Love my Dawgs...

That's all

Google Me

I gotta be honest. I think I'm gettin a taste of my own medicine.

So I understand as an actor, you are going to kiss people for scenes and scripts etc. I always just expected the person I was seeing to understand that...

Let me just tell you. When you are dating a guy, and you can google his name, and photos of him kissing his ex show up, or films with gorgeous girls holding him... that's a different ball game.

Just a thought for you.

Pictures the make me laugh

I was going through my pictures and had so many random funny pictures.. Thought I could share.

The perfect Kind of Date.

Today I had one of those moments in life where you are overwhelmed with love. So much that you cry but you're laughing...you know what I mean right??

While my other 2 bloggies are happy go lucky, that's not exactly where I'm at right now. I am at a much better place than I was this weekend though..so I'll update on what's for REAL happening and then post about the past month or so..

I guess it's best to start at Saturday.. This is what I just copied out of my journal:

The kind of moment you know you will remember forever.

Numb. Paralyzed. Hopeless. Stuck.

This is how I felt all day today.

I knew today was coming. I've been leading up to it for almost a month now.

I fell backwards about 100 steps, and down a side street I did NOT want to be on.

I found myself on the alleyway of despair and this time, there was no getting out of it.

No distraction worked. Sleeping became a nightmare again as my dreams constantly reminded me of my reality.

I was busy the ENTIRE day. I made sure of it. Doing things that should and usually do, make me happy. All I felt was numb. Most times there is a constant ache in the back of my mind. Well today, it was in the forefront..so much that my heart actually hurt.

It's been that way for about 1 1/2 weeks. About 1 step shy of a full blown panic attack.

I tried everything:

A glass of wine, or three (and as all of you know, I do not drink. ever)

talking it out

pushing it away

And tonight I hit a wall. I kept trying to find SOMETHING to make me feel better. NOTHING.

I started getting bitter, annoyed, and impatient.

That's when the Lord intervened..and he did it through my beloved roommate Taylor.

We left a party of all our friends because i could not take it anymore. I wanted to crawl in my bed and just be alone. She was concerned about me because I was so unresponsive…and kept trying to figure out what to do.

That's when my heavenly father spoke to us.

Tay said "Roll down your window"

I obliged.

She said "what do you smell"

I said "the ocean"

she said "exactly lets go."

Without one single hesitation, I turned the car and went to the first side street I saw. We got out of the car, looked at each other, and without one word said or a decision made, we ran as fast as we could in our cute dresses head first right into the Pacific Ocean.

We were so filled by the spirit and peace of God I cannot even describe the feeling. It was so strong. I felt like crying but the joy was so powerful I couldn't stop laughing. It was the oddest sound as we both laughed/ cried/ and splashed around at 12:30 AM alone with our creator in the Pacific waves.

Tay looked at me and said "Hay, this is why we are here...we are suppossed to be here...together" and she was right

Walking out of that ocean, I felt like 3,000 lbs had been lifted off my chest. I cried out, God, take it. Please just take it. I can't carry it anymore. And he did. He lifted my burdens and I will go to sleep now. Light. Joyous. and at peace…

All I needed was a slap in the face with some cold west coast water with my closest friend here, and the one who loves me all the time.

Here are some pics post ocean:

So after the weekend, I felt better until Yesterday....then I hit a breaking point. and talked to my mama all day and contemplated what I wanted to do...and realized that I am offering my life to God with closed fists..and I'm really working on letting go...

Well today I had my favorite date yet..and it was with myself. myself and jesus that is..

I got a presh beach cruiser yesterday and today I decided to ride to the beach. I was scared...there were cars everywhere, but I did it...and As I smelled the ocean breeze I felt like Julia Roberts from Eat Pray Love when she looked so happy in India at complete peace with herself. I felt like that...I did the laugh cry joy sound again and just felt so loved. It was an amazing feeling. As I got to the beach, I saw the sunset, and about 20 surfers surfing the last waves of the day, and I had one of those...holy crap I live here moments...and rode home listening to Sara Barellis and singing at the top of my lungs :) :)

What a perfect date.

xoxo

Hailstorm

Blogfest part 1

So I wrote these blogs on the plane ride about 3 weeks ago...so Ill just post them each day this week. then update you on whats going on now! "You"- I have no idea who that is...but here "you" go ..

I have so many things that I want to document for myself and find it nearly impossible to write down everything that I have done since I got to California. My life took a complete 180 when I went from living with my parents completely dependent on them and in a secure loving relationship to living and providing for myself and entering into an entirely different chapter, hell, book of my life. Both things are quite frightening yet have taught me so much more than I knew I would want to know and have shaped me into who I am right now and who I will continue to grow to be. I am such a happy girl. I have always dreamed of living in California, but it has far exceeded my expectation.. As I sit here and write of my love affair with California, I should start with explaining that I am currently flying into the sweet Georgia state to surprise my sweet mama and family. I miss them more than I can even begin to express. I cried tears of joy as I felt the plane take off headed towards my heart, my home. The thought of hugging my family is making me cry right now..I never understood what A meant when he was on his mission and said that he wasn't homesick, but people sick. He never admitted to wanting to come home, but wanting us to be there with him. I can understand that now. I don't miss GEORGIA necessarily.. at times I do..But mostly I miss the people who if you piece them together make up my heart. I miss my bed, my parents, my friends, my church(es)..I can't wait to revisit all these parts of me this weekend.

I want to start this blog fest by just explaining some things that I have done or tried since I moved to California.

1. I drove across the country with my best friend. We laughed, cried and harmonized for thousands of miles, and it was one of the most satisfying things I have done yet.

2. I have adopted words such as rad, dope, bro, sick, gnarly

3. I saw my first movie in IMAX

4. I started really managing my money and doing things that I want to do, and also paying for things I don't want to ( like an emergency dental procedure that cost me about a grand)

5. Adopted a love for Which Wich and dubstep/ techno DJ music (slowly..very slowly)

6. Rode on the back of a really fast racing bike on the Pacific Coast Highway while the sunset with one of my favorite boys I have met since moving here

7. Learned how to do a trick on a skateboard

8. Learned my first song on a guitar and actually could sing and play it at the same time

9. Went on dates and felt desired by more than just one person

10. Learned how to throw a frisbee and play Ultimate Frisbee

11. Went on a really beautiful and somewhat challenging hike

12. Started working out with a personal trainer and found that I'm a lot stronger than I thought.

13. Learned how to say no (and am working on it)

14. Walked around the ocean with hundreds on sting rays around me, and CHOSE to do it!

15. Became part of a crew of people who play volleyball on Sundays and brunch and cook out together almost every weekend

And that's just a brief introduction to my new life in sunny southern California…Did I mention how happy I am?

Mama Mia!!

So last night I got to spend some time with two sweet boys. Ben and Kevin! We decided to make pizzas..well Ben decided, and we put on Italian dancing music and shimmied through the kitchen as we cooked my first meal in my new apartment in Venice!

I live 2 miles from the beach, and am currently looking to buy my cutsie beach cruiser to ride around the area in. I am so excited to get settled settled in my new place and enjoy the start of yet another chapter out here in LALA land..

I have been living here now for 4 months! How wonderful and exciting.

I am still in the Honeymoon stage with California..and I hope it never leaves :)

Oh before I show these pics, a little rundown. Sweet Ben got in an accident and broke his neck in two places a month ago. I think he looks sexy with his Halo on, don't you ;) He's such a trooper, and a surprisingly amazing chef!

Thought for Thursday

When I think back about falling in love, all i can remember is it being easy. There are no games, complete confidence in where each other stands, and just a feeling of peace. You are able to lay your guard down and you just KNOW they love you for YOU. There is no question, no games, just simple love.

Simple love is the best. It's not dramatic. There are no huge fights and making up...it is simple, patient, and peaceful.

I laughed for about 2 hours last night with some girls as we went over how CRAZY boys can make us..From them texting us something that we overanalyze or not texting us and overanalyze why they didn't or what they are doing.

We read a blog about how girls go crazy when guys don't do what they want, and how we "scare them off" To me, that is complete crap.

All my girly friends out here always ask me how I can just not care about certain situations. How I can keep my cool...It's cuz I just don't care. And the funny thing is, the less I care, the more I get texted..they more I get the kind of answers I want. It's such a game.

A game of who can care less.

How stupid is that?

THAT is why I don't care...

I know of true love, and he's with me all the time and will never leave or forsake me. Everything else seems pretty small compared to that.

Timing

Loving each other is easy...It's the life part that's hard.

This weekend did not go the way I thought it would.

But God's timing is so ridiculously perfect. It freaks me out sometimes. How real he really is.

I CANNOT imagine what would have happened if I wasn't at home this weekend to be here for my family.. I don't want to even think about it..

It may not have been the relaxing warm vacation I hoped for, but by gosh, if I hadn't been here, I don't want to think of what would have happened or how badly I would have felt being in california.

Without too much detail, I have slept with my sister the past 2 nights. She was assaulted and robbed thrown around and shoved into a closet as all her things were taken from her house.

Like I said...God's timing is perfect.

I thought I was surprising my family by coming home..but it was no surprise to the big man upstairs.

I love you father.

Lyrics that change your life

The lyrics of this song just changed my life...

So Beautiful

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me
You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery
Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I‘m the giver of life
I'll clothe you in whine
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me
You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life
Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
& it binds you to me
You're my beloved
Forever we'll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
It's a mystery

Georgia love

My sweety friend Molly sang me this song via Gmail this AM...and I love it

I miss the way you sing low So I can't hear your voice over The radio in my car But you know every word they say You knew you just the right thing to say of Distance ripped us farther and farther and farther away I'll see you soon If you're coming back this way again Come back from California All of us here in Georgia Are starved for your attention We're starved for your attention Come back from California All of us here in Georgia Are starved for your attention We're starved for your attention Maybe I fell too fast Maybe I pushed you away Now you're gone and I'm afriad That you're never coming back this way again (should be way not away) I'll see you soon If you'll come back here I'll see you soon Just say that you want to see me too Come back from California All of us here in Georgia Are starved for your attention We starve for your attention Come back from California All of us here in Georgia Are starved for your attention We're starved for your attention You know I won't mind if you Monopolize all my time I won't say a thing at all I won't say a word no So come back from California Come back from California

Bust a move

I got caught bustin out my dance moves at one of the X games Partayyysss

THE RED BULLETIN X GAMES AFTER PARTY AT ICON LA from CRAZYCHRISFILMS LLC on Vimeo.

Love :)

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/w/warren_barfield/love_is_not_a_fight.html ]
Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for

You HAVE to listen to these.

So I keep raving about the Civil Wars. And I am aware that I am usually behind the times and many of you probably know them already.. but good LORD these songs/harmonies are just beautiful..

And plus I feel as if I have felt or am feeling the exact way that these words describe! I love songs that literally are written as if my heart was an artist. a very talented artist.

Real Talk

I just realized how sad my last post seemed. I wish I knew how to embed links and stuff but whatever, I am just trying to blog here people.

Tonight Me and the roomies got to go to be part of the live audience at the Chelsea Lately show. It was hilarious. We got front row and were those annoying girls who had stitches in their sides from laughing uncontrollably.. We met Chuy and shook his little hand, and just enjoyed being together.

Life has been over the top the past two months. The most ridiculous experiences and amazing nights and fun filled days. Filled with meeting new people, having new adventures, and doing things I never even thought to do. I have found out just how strong I am, and just how weak I can feel at the same time..I have met people who give me hope, and I have met people who let me down. I have seen the most beautiful sunset, and I have been awake all night thinking until I saw the sun rising. I have fallen on the ground laughing, and I have fallen on my knees crying. I have sworn I was never going back home, all the while I have never been more homesick in my life. I realized today that I have never been away from home this long...and I also realized that I won't be there for another 5 months. Do you know how much changes in 5 months? I do. I know just how much can change in 5 minutes, more less 5 months. It scares me just as much as it excites me..

This is my blog, and I get to be as real as I want..right. Maybe I should get someone to teach me how to make it private..anyone can tell me if they want.

But, with that being said. I miss my best friend. I have no problem letting the world know that. Some nights are tough as hell, and somedays fly by. Somedays I can feel a flutter in my heart with some sort of affection, and other times I feel so much pain it scares me.

I think I'm finally realizing what true love is. I'm so grateful for this time of my life...because I would have never appreciated love without this experience I am going through. and yes, I'm still going THROUGH it.. I'm not quite sure if you ever "finish" going through love. Do you?

The reason I am being so sentimental right now is because well A. I am listening to the Civil Wars, which opens up my heart and B. I had a serious talk with my dental hygenist today haha. She needed some advice, and literally cried to me as she was cleaning my mouth..

Sometimes, We just gotta get it out..

And for me, that time is now.

But in case I write too much, I will go to bed :)

- Honest Haley

10 things today

Things I have learned/ been introduced to in LA

1. The Civil Wars : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkxFA7nzLFg&feature=related

2. Paddleboarding

3. Hiking

4. weird words: stoked, rad, sick (all of which I now use too much)

5. An amazing church

6. How to sort of play the guitar

7. A personal trainer

8. Riding on the back of a bike like this: http://tinyurl.com/3bb655s

9. Auditioning for The Bachelor

10. That life is exciting all the time, if you look for it to be

Sleepy Head

I can't believe I really posted a Leona Lewis song...

Clearly someone was tired when working the 6 am shift..

geez.

Better in Time

It's weird to me when you hear songs for the first time in a different time of your life. I loved this song when it first came out. But I didn't really REALLY hear it..You know what I mean? Ironically, when I heard this, I wasn't even thinking about my own situation, but it's got some definite beauty in it. Eat it up.

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought i heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised
that i really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook

Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok

Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because
i deserve too oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)

Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time i let you go so i can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes i Will

Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos i deserve too yes i do(It'll all get better in time)

-- Haleylujia (my favorite new nickname that JB calls me, and I LOVE it!)

I promise to write more...I think

Beautiful Tears

When I heard this song..tears just streamed down my face. Not in a sad way..but in the most beautiful way a girl could ever cry. From her healing heart.

Dane FREAKING Cook

So to pick up where I left off in my last post. Hollywood Improv..

So the next day at work I was made aware of a Red Bulletin party that was being thrown in Hollyweird. I was over exhausted but decided it would be a good idea, which is another reason why i am Still sick..deathly sick..

The party was a lot of fun. Of course it was, it was a Red Bull party what do you expect?

Somehow I ended up at Ryan Sheckler's cabana (who is one of our athletes) and while the majority of the people were drinking it up, I was taking full advantage of the free food and gorged myself in DELICIOUS hamburgers.. yeah thats right. all the skinny girls trying to look good for Ryan and his possy, and I am the big girl eating all the food. #notashamed

I actually met a pretty cool guy who lives with Ryan and he's guided me in some things to do while in L.A. The first of which he recommended was Disney Land. Which only legitimized his coolness in my eyes.

While at the party, I noticed from across the tent Dane Cook..just chillin. FREAKING dane COOK! just hanging out...I wondered if I was the only one who noticed because no one was even looking at him...which I took note of, and stopped acting like a fool..that was until I got on the elevator..and who was I smashed up against..that's right. Dane Freaking Cook.

All the girls were being loud and trying to get his attention and suddenly confident Haley went SILENT. I just looked straight ahead and tried to make sure I was still breathing. since we were in the back (we as in me and DANE FREAKING COOK) we waited until girls got off then he said something to me, and I didn't understand him, so I just kept walking..real nice Haley.. geez!

So i get to my car and i look across the street and Dane FREAKING cook is getting in his, and I say a silent goodbye to myself as I figure I will NEVER see him again, and get in my car.

This is where the comedy club comes into play...

So on my way home, Theo (the comedian from the night before) asks me to stop by the club. He does some different things for Comedy Central and diff podcasts and such, and was recording part of his show up at the comedy club. Usually I would have not gone because I was utterly exhausted but I was already in Hollyweird and decided to just stop in, what was 10 minutes gonna kill me.. (well its killing me now, but thats a different story)

When I walk into the club, who is the first person I make eye contact with? DANE FREAKING COOK. Not lying. We both make the "I know you face" and he from across the bar goes, "Hey, I just rode the elevator with you"...so I made my way over to him...he said "yeah I tried to make a joke about you...I was trying to be funny...it didn't work" I introduced myself to his friends and then I said "Hi, I'm Haley" and he shakes my hand, looks me dead in the HEART and says "I'm Dane." No SH*&*&T you're dane. I am fully aware of that.

At this point, I see Theo coming my way and make my way over to him..

Part 3 Done

Part 2: Wedding, a baby, and a comedian

Amandas wedding was epic. It was probably the funnest weekend I have had in my life...ever. I know that sounds ridiculous..but it's true. I literally have not have that much fun. ever in my life.

Maybe it was because I was coming out of a really dark time in my life that I was just so overjoyed to be happy again. but I swear to you, I have never felt that happy. It was like an overwhelming sense of peace and gratitude of which has yet to leave me. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I feel like I am the happiest I have ever been..

I think there are several reasons for that...and I know that a huge one of those reasons is because I am just so thankful to feel happy again. I literally danced, ate, and laughed my way through the whole weekend. I felt so lucky to sit next to my best friend and be the last person who calmed her down before she walked down the isle to get married!

It's crazy to think she has met the man she will be with forever, and that she married him! How wonderful..i also didn't get home until 630 am that morning because i was just having too much fun hanging out with new and old friends. and i literally danced the whole night away..

That lack of sleep is still hurting me today..nearly 2 weeks later. I feel like complete crap, which is why I am laying in bed writing lots of blogs.

That next day I got to spend time with my family on the boat and meet my new nephew.. Who is PRECIOUS. i love that little booger more than anything in the world. I didn't cry when I left LA..but I SOBBED leaving him knowing i wouldn't see him until he was probably 5 months old..ah.. so scary to even say that out loud..

So that night I spent time with my family and flew out early early that next morning...all my travels were so blessed and I was so lucky to get out on the first flights I tried on and got my sweet roommates to come get me!

On the plane, I had a pretty funny experience. I was on about 2 hours of sleep and quite dillusional...I somehow got squished up against this guy and asked him to hold my shiz while i tried to put up my other luggage..looking back on it, it is quite ridiculous that i just asked a stranger to hold my stuff, but i was just so tired and didnt care...

i slept the entire flight, and my lioness hair was in full mode when i woke up. As i was waiting for my stuff the guy who sat behind me (and held my stuff haha) started convo and told me that he has lived in LA for a while etc...he then said he was a comedian and that i should go check out his show the next night. he got my digits and i kinda just left it at that.. He ended up cracking me up the entire night sending me ridiculous texts and finally i decided to look online and see who he really was...Come to find out, hes a pretty big comedian and when i told his name to my roommates they squealed because he was on real world/road rules for several years...all of which i didn't know and well honestly didn't care about. He told me that he put me on the list for the night and my roommates so we could check out the show. So, we ended up going to the show and it was hilarious. I mean HILARIOUS. there were about 7 comedians performing, and Theo was the closing act. My roommate Ana literally spit her drink onto the stage laughing at one point in the show. It was a GREAT way to introduce the roomies to LA. The comedy club has significance in my next post...but now, I will try to sleep again, because i feel HORRIBLE!

Part 2 complete.