Sissy

My sister is home from college..

this is pretty typical

Amazing Grace

So Brittany and I made up this harmony for Amazing Grace about 4 years ago...for some reason we just cant sing it without laughing...and no, its not funny!! We know, but we cant help it.

Here is the real version and Below is one of the million versions where we couldn't stop laughing

Yes, we are 22 years old, and still act like we did when we met when we were 7

-Roe

I shall blog more.

I cant figure out how to make my pictures pretty and in the middle of my post. oh well. they will be first

Me and Dad when Alex got to dress out!

My main squeeze

waiting at the airport

We didn't get out...and had to drive :( booo

This picture just happened

Life. is. hard.

Life. is. wonderful.

Life. is. short.

Life. is. little. in. comparison. to. eternity.

Things have been rough lately, I'm not gonna lie. Things have also been great lately, I'm not gonna lie there either.

I dont understand why things happen the way they do sometimes. I have been done so wrong. and there is NOTHING I can do about it. The only thing I am trying to do at this points is

Let. it. go.

The only problem is I. don't. know. how.

Im heading up to NYC for job fair event for post MTV Interns. I am hoping to come home with a job. I know the likelihood of that is small, but I am going to do everything possible to make that happen.

Sometimes, when I am in my car by myself, I kind of do an interview with myself. That sounds weird...but its kind of like an evaluation of what is going on in my life. I ask the questions in my head and answer them out loud like I am in an interview. It helps me get a grasp on things.

I answered something that was totally inspired from above because Lord knows I didn't think of it...

I began talking about eternity. I said (to myself)...

"its so easy to get so micro focused on the situation that is going on in our lives at this present moment. It's easy to say that this experience is going to hinder my future even though its so unfair, but in 2 years, this won't stop me. Hell, in six months, this might not even matter. When we think of our lives in terms of eternity, they are microscopic. They are a little fleeting moments in time. I have to stop looking at what happened, and decide what should happen. By not deciding, but looking up to my father in heaven, I know things will be right. Things will be in place. and maybe when I get to where I'm going, I will figure out why this had to happen."

Lemme take yo Pichaa

One of the perks of my new Mac is the fun picture thingy. Here are a bunch of pictures from the past few weeks

Does anybody know how to hold my heart?

Sara Barellis..

I would marry her music if at all possible. Her new CD makes my heart sing!

Im an aunt for the 4th time! HIP HIP HOORAY!

As of today I have worked 7 days in a row...two more...then a weekend. YAY!

My cat is the cutest thing in the world.

Im glad my hair is long again.

Goodnight

Peacefullness

I'm feeling grateful!

Im grateful for

1. my savior

2. my family

3. my best friend and her new fiance

4. my close girlfriends

5. my amazing precious boyfriend

6. my animals

7. my big comfy bed

8. my bed

9. my moms meals

10. my new fun job

My Super Uber Update!

I haven't been on here in years, but I have lots to talk about!

First I will start with Alex's 23rd birthday! How crazy! He is an old man. He should be married by now and at least have one kid hehe..juuust kidding!

Well the weekend was less than fantastic, but ended up being wonderful anyways. I had this whole master plan to make everything happy and exciting for his birthday, and pretty much every plan fell through...BUT we did get to enjoy several days together, so I won't chalk it up to a loss, at all!

So first for his birthday, I wanted to take him hiking up this pretty trail in North Georgia. I spent the day organizing and cleaning his room while he was at practice.. oh wait

ANNOUNCEMENT: ALEX HAS OFFICIALLY MADE THE GEORGIA FOOTBALL TEAM! HE'S NUMBER 23

...Ok continuing.. As I was picking him up, water in tow, his mom called and said she was on her way with his scooter for his birthday. This in turn made us come back home, get in a fight because i was so bummed, and then his mom called and said the scooter wasn't coming because it was broken and they had to send it back. Major failure there..

I was really contemplating how to give alex his present from me, and when my mountain idea was no longer part of the plan, i came up with a new one! I bought alex a shirt he wanted for his bday a while ago and couldnt keep the secret so i gave it to him. Because of that, he didnt expect another gift, especially a really unfortunately expensive gift...SO...I have a video as to how I surprised him with his new Jordan Shoes!

After the shoes, we decided to go out to dinner with some of Alex's favorite friends Justin and John. We had a delicious dinner at LOGANS and a good time was had by all.

That night was followed by a visit to the lake and some yummy pancakes in the morning, but there was one more surprise that even I didnt know about. My aunt KT had recieved a car from her father in law when he passed away and decided to give it to alex. I wish I had a video of the whole thing to show you when he found out, but needless to say, when a 23 year old gets his first car, he is more than excited!

We then decided to drive up to HELEN, GA to spend the day there when Alex got unfortunately sick. He got strep or a cough or something crazy and ended up sitting/sleeping in the car while i walked around for about an hour by myself.. Struggle.

We then went home and spent some time together. OVERALL, it was a success even though it seemed very struggling!

I cant figure out how to put pictures on here now, but when i DO, i WILL. more to come

haley

Happy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the MURPHY girls!

Happy celebration today with my family!

Happy 3 mile run that felt good!

Happy nephew singing his ABC'S.. even tho it went "ABCD...LMNOP"

Happy for birthday cake! ice cream that is!

Happy its SUNDAY!

#dontreadunlessyouwanttobedepressed

I am officially an idiot.

WHY why WHY?? Why does it take getting caught doing something wrong in order to really face the music?

I'm mad at myself. I hurt someone I love which only in turn hurts my world.
Again, I am an idiot.

On another note, I am training for a half marathon. It is a mixture of heaven and hell. That's the best way I can describe it. Its heaven when its over and hell when its happening. haha not really all the time, but most times its hard to run for me. I had an ultrasound today to find I have ovarian cists which is why my side cramps have been nearly unbearable. The Doc told me to take birth control. I really dont want to. I dont like medicine, and I dont want to put hormones in my body...It scares me.

Wow This is a really EMO post. Bed.

Eat, Pray, Love

The search for yourself. Who you are. What you believe in. What moves you. There is a constant battle between searching for love and loving yourself. Why is it that once one has found love they feel as though they lose themselves. On the contrary, why is it that while alone, one seeks companionship? Where do you find that Balance?

Most recently I have been on a sort of independent journey. I am reading, excersizing, and sorting through life. One phrase that has been continual in my head is " It's not about the destination, but more so the journey to get there."

I am so grateful for my journey. I have had several friends who say that my life is always "exciting" or that crazy things happen to me. I don't think that is necessarily true, but I think it's exciting too! I love my life. While I have had very risky moves to NY and decisions i have made SOLEY for myself and not to please anyone else, my current location seems to be intriguing me. I am living in Fayetteville, Georgia.

Fayetteville, Georgia is where I am, I said it again. To the girl who swore she would never live in Georgia, to the Cali girl at heart, to the New York bad a** chick....God showed YOU!

and FINALLY finally, I am at peace. I am so happy where I am. Though Brittany and I tease each other and say we are "townies" I know that I am EXACTLY in the right spot. Right where God wants me to be. I am happy to wake up and watch Regis and Kelly. I am happy to stalk craigslist and go on random interviews. I am happy to be looking into different churches. and most of all, I am happy finding an adventure in FAYETTEVILLE, georgia.

Despite my first thought to exclaim that I am on an independent search for myself and that I am and independent woman and that I am becoming more in touch with what lies in my heart...I will tell the truth. I am not looking anymore at myself, but I am learning more about my God.

On my quest through Genesis, I am just floored. I have never REALLY really looked at Genesis. I have found more things in these few chapters than I feel like I EVER have. and guess what...I am starting to feel peace. The peace I longed for, the peace I didn't know I was missing. There is this sort of hunger for God that I have been missing. I used to have it. I used to be so intriuged by God...and now, it's even more. I don't know exactly what happened, but I feel so Alive.

No, I am not in a hit movie, or singing the national anthem at the Superbowl. I'm not on the beach learning to surf or going to clubs and restaurants in Hollywood..But I am filming for a short film. I do sing Karaoke in my room. I'm not surfing, but I am laying by the pool reading about Jesus' miracles with my mom, and I get to go to Mexican with some of my dearest friends whenever I want.

I am happy. I am joyful. I am finding myself, by finding my God.

- Roe

Video to accompany

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyfMZSaw0i0&p=3D6A8C7354768E5A&playnext=1&index=30

Check it out...This is my anthem currently

I am Lovely!

Don't wanna be hurt
I just want to be little old me
Shouldn't have to think
Who am I suppose to be today
And what give you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right

Cause I, I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I know you want the best
Yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can be all these things you project on me
Cause I'm beautiful to me
Doesn't that mean a thing

I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I need that to be enough for you
Need that to be enough for you
Cause it's enough for me
It's enough for me

I'm I suppose to give up everything I am
Just to make you happy
I thought I was the one you
Always wanted me to be
It turns out I'm just little old me
I'm just little old me
And that's fine by me

Cause I, I am lovely
Just the way that I am
Oh yes I am,
Yes I am lovely
The way that I am
I am lovely lovely
I am lovely

Bachelorette Weekend!

Here are a few photos from one of the best weekends ever...Kims Bachelorette Party...

We flew into Jacksonville Airport and began our Glamorous weekend. Because none of this amazingness has ANYTHING to do with me or my money (because i do not have any) I feel like I am allowed to brag on the ridiculousness of it all!

As we pull up we jump in a BMW convertible, Jaguar Convertible, and huge suv as these handsome men put our bags in the car! We grab some Whataburger (YUM) and groceries! When we got to maddies I thought I was in an episode of the Real World. It was unbelievable. I will post videos of the place after this. We were just floored at the beauty and SPACE and view. it was amazing! That night we went to a delicious dinner that looked like something from Laguna Beach and finished off the night with the Lakers win against the Celtics!

The next morning around 10 AM the blender was a turnin with some delicious drinks and we got our luxurious chairs and headed to the beach ALL DAY long. We then made tacos and margaritas as we waited for Kims first surprise. We had a passion party. I about fell out of my chair 10 times. That's all I will say about that.

The next day was beach madness and the Bachelorette Party. We got all pretty and got in our limo! As we pulled into dinner I just couldnt believe everything that had gone on up to this point. Just ridiculous fun. As we ate filet and listened to music I was so happy! We then went to a bar and stayed there the whole night. We danced, laughed, and checked off kimmys to do list. The night ended with Kimmy in the pool with Lauren and some good laughs as we went to bed.

The night was short lived as I woke up around 7 to take Trisha to the airport. As we left the condo we were mini depressed but not for long as we drove in our cool cars. The flight home was the highlight of my trip. I have some photos ill add later with COOLEST MOMENTS of my LIFE as the title, where i was flying the plane. I literally called into atlanta controller and talked and drove it by myself. I was So nervous but so excited.

Then the best thing happened. Maddies dad decided to do tricks in the plane. We were using Gforce stuff and laughing and crying from excitement and fear. He took us way up and we rose from our seats for a good 6 seconds before our butts hit the ground as we dropped hundreds of feet! We were so scared but I have literally NEVER laughed harder in my pants. I think I peed a little, and I have no problem saying that beause it was THAT funny! Amazing weekend.

I have realized that Laughter is truly one of the best things about life. I love to laugh and to share that with those I love :) :)
Heres some pics!



In the Limo


On the Plane

Lauren! :)

Look behind maddie, you can see me flying!!

Bathing beauties!

The plane

The star of the show

My Love

Get it !

She is about to say it!

Mad Dawg

Maid of Honor!

Our beautiful view!

Our beautiful dinner!

Again with the cake!

Videos

I dont know what these videos are before i post them. hmmm.........

A night Alone :)

St. Thomas Sign. Cracks me up: Attitude Adjuster.

The Streets of St. Tomas at night. GHOST TOWN

Sandy after the beach!

Before Dinner in St. Thomas

A little lovin' on the boat

Magens beach

Our last dinner in St. Thomas. You can tell I had been crying the whole day.

I finally made it onto the cool boat!!

My boo

A little Scripture time

Skiing at the lake

Happy to be not working!

My beautiful Aunt Amy

Focusing!

Alex with a little BBQ sauce on his face

My dad has still got it!

Sunset :)

My cuz carley!

Time to Skii!

My beautiful mother

Twins?! love you ryan!

Precious Gordo and Candy

Girls at Peters lake house weekend

Some of the boys!

Time to get some sun!

My roomski

Gotta snuggle on the rug with Haynes!

Goodbyes just keep gettin harder

Beautiful roomies! missed you Jori and Krams

This is my beautiful friend megan who is going to be a Disney Princess at Disney!

What a strange time in my life.

I am the most confused I feel like I have ever been. I just read through my blog for the past year or so and laughed and cried as I remembered all the life and blessings I have lived in the past few years.

Why does life always go in big circles. There are times of joy, pain, laughter and sadness. It is so easy to look back and see that you cried for this to laugh over that but when you are in a time of confusion the fog is too thick to see through it sometimes.

I am so blessed. I am so grateful for everything in my life. But I don't know what I am supossed to do. About anything... No one warned me about this thing called Post-Graduation blues.

I have dreams and I have plans, but I dont know when or how I am supossed to do them. I'm scared. Most of the time I am so hopeful, but right now, I am straight up scared.

I just hope that in one year I look back at THIS post and see how God was just preparing me for something and I AS ALWAYS was being very impatient ;-)

I have also realized that Blogs are so much better with pictures and videos...So here are some all random from this summer!